Returning home for the Christmas break was great relief. It was as though I had held my breadth for over a month and had just found my way to the surface of the pool. Indeed the relief was great. It was great to be back in an environment that you are more familiar with. One doesn't have to be extra careful to leave in peace. At home you can hardly offend anyone by having a great time unlike camp where a little thing could be a taboo for someone from another part of the country.
As the break is now over, my head is filled with thoughts. There is a mixed feeling in my heart. Joy about the new experiences and anxiety about the unknown; anticipation for opportunity and caution for the sake of safety; Feeling of liberty makes me want to loose myself and the sense of responsibility that helps me add caution. All these flood my little head.
Now, I have a feeling I'm climbing up to the surface from which i'm going to take a dive. This time the dive would be deeper than the first. This is not a three weeks dive like the first and it isn't a surface or waist deep pond either. It is a pond deep enough to overwhelm and a stay long enough to be drowned. But I don't have to be overwhelmed, I don't have to drown. I can learn to breathe under water.
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